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Writing is a skill we were all taught. At the start it involved vocabulary, spelling, grammar, sentence formations, paragraphs, and writing short essays. It is natural to speak, but to write out our stories is another matter. The rules are numerous and complex, and the style books are thick with guidelines.

When I started to write fiction, I was excited to be free from the straight jacket of the marketing reports I’d written for years. Releasing my imagination, I would create beautiful sentences and spin artful stories. However, when I sat down to write, what I had in my mind did not flow through to my fingerprints or pen. The sentences were clunky, the paragraphs random, in my rush to complete a story I wanted to tell.

Since then I’ve taken many writing courses and filled dozens of notebooks. I practiced the craft of writing just like I practice yoga poses. My stories improved. But I could tell something held me back from artistry. I wanted the same ease in my writing as in my yoga poses. I was guarding, but I was ready to let go. Sadly, I didn’t know how.

Then I came upon Free Fall Writing, a style we in Calgary know  because of W. O. Mitchell. Every Friday, for several years now, I’ve met with others and we write and let the words flow: no stopping, no crossing out, no judgment. Then, we read our fresh writing, and, treating each piece like a newborn baby, we say what we admire about it. I don’t always like my writing that day, but when I go back later, I always find wonderful sentences and paragraphs and occasionally a story that feels exactly right.

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Exploring in Yoga Poses

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Parsvottanasana

In yoga asana practice, there is a point at which students learn to hold poses longer. They’ve learned the basic shape of each pose, which part of the body grounds and which extends, and have heard the instructions of how to breathe in the pose. At this point, they hold each pose longer, the body awareness deepens, and they receive more messages from the muscles and joints – discomfort, shaking, fatigue.

I remember this stage of practice. In class one day, the instructor gave us a standing forward bend with the legs scissored (Parsvottanasa). It requires folding forward, keeping the heels down, engaging the core and balancing. The instructor said, “I see you like to hold back.” I wasn’t sure he was talking to me. Then, he used my name, “Margaret, you can go forward another two inches.” He was right. I did.

I was unaware I had used my muscles to control how far forward I went. To avoid discomfort I was holding back — I call this “guarding.” My brain had told me how far forward I could go; that day I listened to my body instead. We stayed in that pose for another three minutes, and this gave me time to explore the pose. Holding poses isn’t about doing them better; it’s about developing a more complete awareness of what we’re doing. Once aware of guarding, we can choose to explore. In those long holds, eventually, we learn how effortless the pose can be.

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The Heart Center Herb

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One of the characters in my novel is a master herbalist. While I’d tinkered with herbs for years, I wanted to factcheck what I’d written about this character and get the terminology and methods right. So I attended a lecture on “Reproductive Herbs” by two local herbalists. Turned out attending that lecture improved parts of the story as well as my state of mind

One of the herbs they presented is Motherwort, officially named Leonarus cardiaca. It means lionhearted. The juxtaposition of mother and lionhearted intrigued me. Would it cause me to become more nurturing, or a strong warrior, like Richard the Lionhearted? The plant is said to strengthen the physical heart and is considered one of the best heart tonics. It also calms the heart and nerves, a sedative and nerve tonic used for women’s problems, especially of nervous origin. (Not given to pregnant women, however.)

I knew I had to try it. Attending the lecture was research, but the idea of an herb to calm the heart got me. I’ve used many herbal teas and tinctures over the years for minor ailments and have experienced their benefits, but it’s trial and error until I find the ones that suit my particular constitution. I’ve taken Motherwort at night for months now and I am calmer, less easily agitated, and sleep better.

What does this have to do with writing and yoga? Being in a more peaceful place makes writing and yoga easier to do. I am less distracted and can dive into these activities more deeply, and, with fewer mental distractions, it possible to move more confidently through a story or a pose. I’m more patient, less rushed.

I’m not trying to sell you on this herb, or any others. I just know from years of yoga practice that quieting the mind (advised in the second Yoga Sutra) is not simple and takes years of practice. Motherwort has helped soothe me in a way I didn’t know was possible. I didn’t take it because I had a problem, yet it revitalized me in a subtle way. I like the idea of remedies like this.

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The Heart and The Eye

Opening the heart almost always requires a good eye. An eye toward the beauty that surrounds us in things large and small: an historical building with velvety moss on its ancient bricks, or a tiny spark of light on the sand. The things that hover on the edge of our personal world remind us that we inhabit a mysterious planet.

But the eye must also be able to see inside, able to see the large and small in that interior world, for that is where the heart lifts. The heart that pumps a regular rhythm, courses life through our body, the heart that generates those signs of vitality: pulse and blood pressure. The heart that seems to expand when we inhale, inspire, and become immersed in an engaging activity. It’s those times we have the definite sense that the heart grows larger, even though the eye would not register the change. It occurs most noticeably when we see what touches our hearts: a baby, an old friend, a lover.

I’ve wondered what it is that stirs the heart and causes this temporary expansion. Is there an invisible ray of energy that finds its way from one person to another? A ray that warms, enfolds the heart in a soft caress, then flutters like a small bird held softly in the hands? If there is such a thing, a ray that expands and enlivens the heart, wouldn’t we see it after a time so we could be careful with it?

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Writing A Spring Garden

My desk used to face the window that overlooks our garden of perennial flowers. I had to move the desk years ago, when the garden was forming, because I’d look out and see what needed to be done: cut back a delphinium gone to seed, or pull a blowsy dandelion, or move a yellow globe plant to a place where I could better enjoy it. Now, my desk is slightly turned away from the window. It’s helped me focus longer on my writing, but I miss seeing the flowers, especially this time of year when the scent of the lilac blossoms and those on the Hawthorne tree waft in through the window.

But I’ve found that glimpses into the garden aren’t nearly as satisfying as going outside, taking the time to enjoy the garden and appreciate how it develops and changes over the summer. We keep a country style perennial garden, even though we live in the city. We let plants spread out, sow their seeds, and grow tall. Maybe I take a trowel or clippers with me when I go out, but I make a promise to mainly enjoy the different colors of green leaves, the shapes of the buds and flowers, the way the irises and poppies are spreading out.

This year, the early warm weather and the heavy rain have contributed to denser foliage and more blossoms. It’s one of those years when the wild columbines have flourished: a dozen have appeared with lots of blossoms in pink and white. The blue forget-me-nots fringe two sides of one section in the garden. Our garden is mature now and doesn’t require much planting, but last year, we added three new, showy plants that are thriving — Queen of the Prairie, Sea Holly, and Hydrangea. To keep a little surprise in the dappled shade, we replaced two ladyslippers.

Over the summer we’ll have different flowers blooming each month, by design. The full summer bloom, its potential just beginning to show, promises to be spectacular.

 

 

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